if i died, nobody would care. everything good ive ever had is now gone. everything is over. there is no reason. my family hates each other because of me. my friends drift because of me. nobody loves me, because of me. there is no reason. i should have just ended it last weekend. i had the chance. why didnt i take it? the gun was in my hand. i have no reason to continue on. i havent had one for a long time. i have no purpose. whats the reason? i only write in here because i have nobody. my mother hates me. my father abandoned me. my stepfather never even loved me. there is no reason. i should have just done it. the gun was in my hand. why? the gun was in my hand. why? why did i not it was in my hand why didnt i do it the gun was in my hands it was loaded why didnt i do it i have nobody i have nothing nothing nothing nothing i have nothing